Once upon a time there was a little girl who grew up in confusion and pain. How she wished she could be like Alice and drink a potion that would shrink her to the size of an ant! Then she could crawl into the space between the bricks and hide. The little girl was very young and yet she was old enough to understand. She longed to disappear to a place where no one could find her; a place where she could curl up into a little ball and sleep peacefully without feeling rejected, wondering all the time what she did wrong. “I didn’t do that! I didn’t do that, really I didn’t!”, she would cry. But she knew that she was going to have to say that she did, again, just to make them stop. If she could only squeeze into the space between the bricks she knew she would be able to think more clearly, maybe even make sense of all the fuzziness around her, undisturbed, untroubled, free from criticism and judgement. The space between the bricks would be her very own, crumbly little place. There she could be free to be herself, invisible to the rest of the world…
Yesterday there was a little girl, but yesterday is already a very long time ago… The little girl grew up. She still feels confusion and pain at times, oh yes, she still feels confusion and pain, but confusion and pain no longer own her. The grown up little girl has learnt to look beyond the surface, to move beyond the mundane and to take risks as she continues to grow in awareness. No longer afraid, she’s stepped out from the shadows she used to hide in to live authentically, not giving a damn what people think of her, while giving a damn about everything that matters outside of herself.
It’s time to wake up and crawl out from the space between the bricks!